Parenthood

Has anyone watched the show Parenthood? 

This show made me think.  And, I hate thinking. 

I often question what I want to do with my “life”–career-wise.  But the one thing that never wavers—and never will, it the desire to be the best parent possible.  Abigail has been the most constant, and satisfying component of my life. 

I’m very lucky to come from an excellent family.  My parents were always there–every basketball game, parent teacher conference, banquets, graduation….you get the picture.  They have supported me through all the circumstances that  Ihave endured–single motherhood, living FAR away, being laid off (for a short-period, might I add), through another move (not quite as far away,  I would also like to add)….once again, you get the picture.  I’m not sure that I have always expressed my thankfulness.  I know I have given them a couple gray hairs, but I really am the luckiest kid.

After having an ideal childhood, I was afraid that I wouldn’t be able to give the same to Abby.  A single mom, with a mediocre salary.  Would I be able to give her the support (financially, emotionally, physically, etc) that she deserves?  And, we did very well.  I put everything into my little girl.  And she’s a thriving 3 year old. 

When we moved to Kentucky, I was wondering how our dynamics would change.  Elkana has always been great with Abby.  Even before she met him for the first time, she was in love with him.  I vividly remember the first time she met him.  On the second day, while I was in the kitchen, they were reading and Abby asked “Could you be my daddy?”.  The SECOND day.  And, Elkana, being the geatest guy in the world, answered, “I would love to.”.  He didn’t realize until the next day, that I heard the exchange between the two of them.

So….back to co-habitating.  I knew he loved her.  But, living with a 3 year old, 24/7, can be very trying.  It was evident the first week, that things were going to be okay. 

Elkana and Abigail are like two peas in a pod.  They routinely gang up on Mommy.  And I love every second of it.  Every evening, they “snuggle” on the couch before bed.  If he is at the library studying, he will call to tell her good night.  During spring break, Abigail was lucky enough to get to stay home from daycare.

Single motherhood scare me.  Wait, it TERRIFIED me.  I wanted my little girl to experience what I had growing up.  And, she’s got it. 

I’m probably the luckiest girl in the world.

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